Emergence

Emergence
Gabriel turns Two: Happy Birthday Sweet Boy

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Five Days After Birth

Five days after birth
No one is inside me
Only my guts wriggle, trying to find their way to normalcy
Normalcy

A New Life; A New kind of Normal
Changing bed arrangements
Stretching a couple's love deeper toward agape
Three kids; yes, there are three of them
Gabriel Nuzzles Avriana and tenderly chants "Baby" over and over
Then pulls forcefully on her tiny tuft of darkish hair
She frowns and goes back to sleep

Nika wonders, "Will Avriana like me?"
And remarks enthusiastically, "Avriana's butt crack is showing!"

Avriana pants for my breast and suckles perfectly until gas strikes
Gas is the worst

Burping, like occasional crying is a relief

Sleeping happens or doesn't at odd times
I lie awake while Avriana sleeps, wondering how I'll take care of my whole family
How I'll take care of me too

Avriana is awake for a little while and I smile exhausted and delighted into her marvelous eyes, singing her the song I made when she was making in me

I start working on albums, balancing time with the other two wonderful children

And I eat chocolate.

3 comments:

lisa said...

Hurrah! Well done! Blessings of grace and stamina and laughter... Sleep and more chocolate too :-)

Miz Melly said...

Failte, Bienvenue, Wilkommen, Welcomel little Avriana. ANd well done, Jemila! Congratulations! Wonderful news. Take good care of yourselves. Yay, what happy news!

ktismatics said...

Congratulations!